Addiction and Autism

How addiction worksThe brain releases the neurotransmitter dopamine in the nucleus accumbens when it detects pleasure such as sex, a good meal or drugs, according to HelpGuide.com. When abusing any type of drug, it causes a surge of dopamine, and the speed with which dopamine releases, as well as the reliability and intensity of the …

My Dad is Currently Next To Me Reading NA Pamphlets

The Truth From My Lips

Today is a big day; I both got to visit my parents' new house for the first time, as well as tell them about my history with addiction. It went well, and they were very understanding. They asked appropriate questions, and it felt as good to have told them as I figured it would! My …

It’s Time

I have decided to tell my parents about my drug abuse this weekend when I go to see them.I am excited to clear the air and lift this weight of lying to them off of myself that I've been carrying around for about two years. But I'm also a little bit worried that they will …

Proud

I got sick from someone at work (most likely a kid) and it's been almost a week but I'm still feeling under the weather. I got called in yesterday since one of the schools needed an assistant and everyone else was already sent out to different schools, so there I was, getting a ride from …

Realizations

I wake up to someone standing in my doorway. It’s J, nudging me awake as I’ve slept through several alarms. I stir, still groggy after all the downers I took last night before going to bed. Shit, I think. I was meant to get up at 8 and it’s now closer to 11am.  I pull …

Five Months

[Trigger warning: overdose] Addiction is such a sneaky beast. Some days I don't give my drug of choice a second thought, as if I wasn't a daily user this time last year that felt like two days without pills would be a nightmare. But there are other days (thankfully less often, now) that I get …